I only have this…. 

“We have here only five loaves of bread and two fish,” they answered. “Bring them here to me,” he said.”‭‭Matthew‬ ‭14:17-18‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Oh how many times have I felt like this, being asked to do something or help someone beyond what I feel I have to give. 

In the scripture above Jesus was asking the disciples to feed thousands of people, and in their eyes they wanted to send them away because they “didn’t have enough”.  

Yeah, if I was there I would be thinking the exact same thing….” but we only have this”

When I first started writing this blog weekly this was exactly how I felt. I really want to impact people, share Gods love and lift others up. I was honestly asking myself what platform I could use…I had only limited time, limited resources, limited opportunities to share. I said to Jesus “I only have this, but I give it to you and if it impacts one person that’s enough for me”. It’s been about 8 months now and there’s been over 2000 people who have read something, I have had so many people message or tell me how they have been impacted by the blog, being ready to draw closer to God again, realize their value in him and other stories of healing because I gave what I had to be used. 

Jesus asked the disciples to bring whatever they had and give it to him and when they did he blessed what they gave, they handed it out to the people and there was more than enough.
When we find ourselves saying “I only have this” and give whatever small portion we do have to Jesus, he multiplies it through us. Supplies what others needed but doesn’t leave us without, actually we are left with more than what we started with. 
Whether it be in friendship, sharing Gods word, money, time, resources, prayer or talents, whatever it is that you feel God asking to give to him to bless and help others just do it! Of course what we have is not enough, or else we wouldn’t need faith! 
But with Him we have more than enough. 

Could you imagine yourself impacting one person with what you have….how about thousands? There’s really no limit to what God can do through you! 

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Things start out small 

When we plant any seeds, in the natural we expect a harvest. 

I tried gardening once….it was pretty bad. I don’t have a green thumb that’s for sure and to be honest I’m pretty neglectful and lazy when it comes to watering, weeding and getting rid of bugs. My landlord once saw my garden and felt sorry for me, it was pretty funny. The next day my Landlord came and planted a whole lot of tomatoes that he had grown from seeds, he would care for then every day and of course they reduced beautiful tasting tomatoes! 

When we plant in our lives in differnt areas we will get something from it.

You want better friends? Sow seeds of good friendship, stop and ask “Is this going to be a good seed or am I planting a weed?”.
For friendships:

Praying for our friends, encouraging, giving, to them, spending time together. You want better environment at work? What seeds are you planting? Is this word I’m speaking or Attitide I have and am I saying good things about my work collegues or boss. 

Is this a Good seed or a weed?

We can plant seeds daily towards many areas of our lives; work, love towards others, love towards self, relationships, healing, finances, gift development, spiritual, goals.

No one has a garden and decides to plant weeds. So why do we do it so many times in our daily lives? 

 Asking God to take away the bad more room for good is a great way to “garden” our lives. 

I’m sure we all want greatness and good stuff in our lives and the results always come from the small seeds that we plant today. Keep planting and being aware of what “kind” of seed you’re planting and have vision to see something big and great come from it! 
“Surely he says this for us, doesn’t he? Yes, this was written for us, because whoever plows and threshes should be able to do so in the hope of sharing in the harvest.”

‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭9:10‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Why I stopped posting negative stuff.

I used to air every annoyance, or complaint that I had, something that someone did against me or something I didn’t like to someone on social media.I’d try find humorous ways or just blatantly say it. I mean who gets harmed by my negativity anyways……
If you follow any of my posts or social media you won’t find anything negative on there. Not a story, a complaint or a joke. Years ago I decided to stop.

Why? 

I realized I have the power to impact people in a positive or a negative way, I can show the good that’s happening in life or talk about the imperfections. 

I believe part of the importance of being a Christian is showing hope, joy and the choice of happiness in this world rather than soaking up and spilling out the negativity which is everywhere.

I’d rather be around someone who uplifts me and leaves me feeling great than around someone who leaves me feeling angry, hopeless and annoyed at the world around me. 

Before every lifegroup we ask “Who has good news”. Why do we start like this? It’s to make us start by focusing on the good that happened this week and shift our eyes to gratitude. 

Are we gonna be the darkness? Or are we gonna be the light? 
I wanna be the light! The world is full of darkness, but darkness doesn’t inspire or give life, light and love do. 

That is my why. 
When people see what I write, what I post, I want their eyes and souls to be soaking up something good and not bad. So what I choose to put up is what I’m choosing to give others and what I choose to read is what I’m choosing to feed my soul.

This scripture pretty much sums it up. 

“The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are healthy, your whole body will be full of light. But if your eyes are unhealthy, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!”‭‭ Matthew‬ ‭6:22-23‬ ‭NIV‬‬

The right kind of worship

My most intimate, powerful, breakthrough, healing, inspiring and favorite moments have been during worship. Lifting up the name of Jesus, declaring that he is no 1, His name is powerful and thanking him for the great things he has done.
I’ve sometimes heard some people say “I can’t worship to this song” or “I find it hard to worship with this band” the problems of it’s too loud or quiet, a full band, not enough musicians, the room is too “Holy” or not Holy enough, the style, the length these things start to get in the way and I want to say one thing. 
If there is a problem for you to worship….it reflects the condition of the heart.
Worshiping God is about the heart of surrendering yourself to Him and lifting up the name of Jesus because He is so good.

Getting past the place or the time or the song will release you to worship more and get more than ever before.

I have had so many different times of worship which have impacted my life. 
At a camp fire, in a concert hall, a class room, my car, with one friend in my house, with a group of friends in a bus, on my kitchen floor, with a full band, when I have felt like it and when I didn’t, with edm, with my ukulele alone, at a funeral, a wedding, a birthday party, at church, in my lowest moments and at my highest points.

There is something about Worship that breaks through walls, sets us free and personally I get overwhelmed sometimes like God is giving me a big huge hug.

What ever moment that we go through or what ever place we find ourselves, no matter how big, small or great the band is, if we prepare ourselves to lift up God (because he is bigger than everything) I know without a doubt We can have moments with God anywhere. 

“Sing to the Lord, all the earth; proclaim his salvation day after day. Declare his glory among the nations, his marvelous deeds among all peoples.” ‭‭1 Chronicles‬ ‭16:23-24‬ ‭NIV‬‬

So you’re lucky enough to know my weak points.

Why does it seem that people are able to talk about someone they hardly know so well but those close to them are full of weaknesses?
It’s actually a privilege to know someone’s weakness. We often can see someone’s good points very fast, it’s almost like they are highlighted to us and as we get closer we see that this person is full of blemishes. 
If someone knows me very well and they choose to be my friend and love me despite my imperfections then I’ve just found a good friend.
What we choose to do with our overall knowledge of this person is where the level of friendship and Gods love comes in.
Do we choose to shine light on this persons strengths to others or do we tell others what we have observed or know about our friends faults. 
“Oh yes, she’s super generous but she doesn’t know how to save”

“She’s a good singer but she isn’t good at this and this”

“Yeah she’s got a high paid job but she talks about it too much”

What we decide to say shapes other people’s images of our friends and families.
We choose what words come out our mouth and what we choose to say to others. 
I want people to find out that I have been taking behind their back but in a good way, shining light on their good points and speaking life about them. 

How amazing if someone finds out you have been talking about them and they say “wow she really said that about me” and instead of feeling hurt they are feeling uplifted and empowered. 

There is no perfect person, no perfect family, no perfect church, job, husband or wife. The closer you get you will know and see the amazing and not so amazing parts and it’s a privilege to see those things.

Let’s choose to shine and give life to people, whether they are in the room or not. Speaking life and love about our relationships. 

“Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.”‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭4:29‬ ‭NIV‬‬

A tough week 

It had been a challenging week, I jumped in the shower and started to pray. “Can you thank me?” I felt God say to me.”What?, thank you? I’m trying to complain…I mean pray. I believe in the power of Jesus, in healing and what we ask in prayer we receive, why is everything going wrong? And why is koa still sick!”

Still the answer was “can you thank me?”

With gritted teeth I reluctantly started to thank God for different things. Having a roof over my head, an awesome family, my friends, our car, my job, our usual health. As I went through the list I became more excited to say more, I felt built up and by the time I was out I was refreshed like a new person as if walls had come down and I had a new sense of faith and fight in me.

My son had a fever of 40 degrees for over a week at that stage, we had done 3 trips to the doctor and 2 to the hospital, chest X-rays, drips and nebulizers. The washing machine broke and we had two air cons that needed to be installed.
After my shower I walked into the room to see my son, the worship music was playing and he was still laying exausted. 

I layed down next to him, he looked at me and put his hands in the air like he was worshiping. It was so cute I copied him and we worshiped together.

Suddenly like a bolt of lighting had stuck him he jumped up, ran into the other room and started playing his little drums!

My husband and I looked at each other and surprised I said “what just happened?”
Koa was jumping, smiling and playing the drums and he had color in his face again.

I checked his temperature and the fever was gone! 
The next day we decided to take the washing machine to the recyclers. It was time to get a new one. We had already done a few trips to the laundry mat and I had been trying to start it all week with no avail. I actually laid hands on it and prayed for it to work like 3 times. Just before we took it to the van my husband suggested we try turn it on one more time. I pushed the start button and it started to work! We cracked up and thanked God for his perfect timing. 

After church the following day the aircon guy came to install our machines, the quote was for $350, with the summer here and our friends with 4 children coming to stay we needed to get it done.

The man went and installed everything and at the end asked for $100 only! 

I was totally blown away, this man came on a Sunday, fit us in last minute and now took more than half off his quote for us!

God gave me the challenge to worship and thank him through my hard time, when I was feeling so low. Could I still put him first and do what he asked. 

It had been a tough week, but through Gods faithfulness and the breakthrough power of worship and thankfulness it became a victorious week! 

“Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.” ‭‭1 Thessalonians‬ ‭5:16-18‬ ‭NLT‬‬