Why I am not enough

I often hear the saying “If you believe in yourself, you can do anything”. Well, that is definitely not true for me. 

I know I have faults, I am not perfect and need a consistent in my life that would help me through my high successes, struggles, decisions and relationships.

I need favor when there is a job interview or a decision that does not rely soley on me.

Trying to just “believe” in myself would only complicate, disappoint and falsify everything that is at work in my life. 

Believing in God and what Jesus has done for me on the cross I then can do life victoriously and do the impossible.
“Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”‭‭Matthew‬ ‭19:26‬ ‭

I am not enough but Jesus is. 
He is enough:To help me to love more.

To show me direction.

To find me favor.

To open doors.

To close doors.

To give me peace.

To give strength.

To take away shame and regret.

To live victorious.

To dream.

To make a way when there seems no way.

To give me hope when hope is lost.

To give me joy.

To give me freedom.

To heal me.

To help me forgive.

To be a better Mum.

To be a better friend.

To be the best wife. 

To comfort me when I am sad.

To rejoice with me when I am happy.

To light my path.

“Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path.”‭‭ Psalm‬ ‭119:105‬ ‭

Gods words can light the way for each step I take. When it feel like there is darkness all around, He shows me the light and when I feel like there is nothing more in me to give , He pours his love and it overflows onto others. 

With Him all things are possible! 

There is nothing too insignificant or too large for him. 

Not depending on myself but depending on Him!

So if you are feeling like you are not enough…..that is 100% okay, because by yourself you may not be, BUT in Jesus you are more than enough.

I guess I could say “If you believe in JESUS, then you can do anything!”

“I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” ‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4:13‬ ‭

Get lifted

When we lift others up we are pulling ourselves up higher. 
As a leader and as a friend I am continually  faced with the choice to either lift someone else up or myself. 
In the natural we may think that if we show the weaknesses of others or find fault in others we will look greater and be elevated higher but the opposite is true. 
Instead of making things seem complex and yourself sounding like “The master of all” Making things simple and breaking things down in a way that others can understand easily is not only going to make people feel impowered but it’s also going to get people excited about trying too! 

As we encourage and talk about the potential, gifts and good works of others and say “I believe in you!” You’re doing great” they get lifted and in turn so do we. 

“When you try and be top dog, you don’t create loyalty. If you don’t can’t give credit, you will drown in your inhibitory to inspire” – John Maxwell 

A leader or friend who gives no opportunities or grants to access for higher chances is like strong man in a boat with a group of people not letting anyone row the boat because he is the strongest. Guess who will get tired? And who will get burnt out? Not the people sitting watching the strong man struggle. If he gives other people chances and individuals who are willing to paddle saying “you can do it” they all move forward and the whole boat benefits, especially the strong man and they all get a sense of achievent together.

I definitely get challenged by this sometimes because I think “I am capable” but so are others! And when people get chances to shine and be rewarded big and small, we all get lifted and taken to a new level of greatness and forfillment as a team! 

“Your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom, and your dominion endures through all generations. The Lord is trustworthy in all he promises and faithful in all he does. The Lord upholds all who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down.”‭‭Psalm‬ ‭145:13-14‬ ‭NIV‬‬

The time God told me to give my lunch away

Ever stopped and seen someone hungry and felt so sorry for them, you can see that they need help and for a brief second this persons world over takes yours but then you continue normally in your day. Sympathy. Feeling sorry. Is it enough? 
I was walking through the train station on my way to work when I saw the homeless man who slept by the elevator. “Give him your lunch” this thought came to my mind and I thought “huh, really?” Then the image of the sandwich I made came into my head. “What will I eat” I thought. I was rushing so I ran to catch my train.

 As I passed the bagel shop on the way to work I thought to myself “I should have given that man my lunch, I would have bought a bagel here” 

When I got to work my work collegue handed me a bag of bagels from the bagel shop. 
Sympathy vs Compassion 
Compassion is love in action.

Compassion sets the bar at another level and says “I feel your pain and this is how I can help”

We may not be able to help everyone who is going through something but we all have someone who we can help or encourage or lift today. 
Sometimes it will be easy like giving someone your lunch and for an afternoon you will be sightly hungry but for that person they just went from starving to full and from hopeless to hopefull.

I felt pretty silly that I didn’t do such a small act which God was asking me to do. 

Of course after work the homeless man was still there, And I gave him the food, but I should have been obedient at the time God asked.
I learnt a huge lesson that day, listen to the Holy Spirit when he is asking you. Big and small. Be a person of love and action. Just do it.

“If one of you says to them, “Go in peace; keep warm and well fed,” but does nothing about their physical needs, what good is it? In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.”

‭‭James‬ ‭2:16-17‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Hope and trust

Sometimes we put too much in other people and get disappointed in the result. Maybe it’s a boss or collegue. It could be your husband or friend. How about your teacher or parents? 

People are just human and they make mistakes, we are to trust and love people but not put all hopes, ambitions, self worth in them because we are all full of imperfections and sometimes lack.

God should be the one we are putting our number one hope, dreams, faith and trust in. 

When we do this it’s easier not to be so put out when people let you down. It’s easier to forgive and it’s much more satisfying to listen and obey what God is prompting you to do rather than worrying about the opinions or judgments of those around you. 
God put breath in you and he put breath in those around you. Respect that and let God be the deciding factor in your life and see an incredible change in the way we see our beautiful lives. 

“As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” 

Isaiah 55:9

Do you like Sweet Potato?

The sweet potato is a popular food in Japan, you can find it roasting on the side of the streets in the back of a truck or used to make cakes or chippies. In New Zealand the sweet potato (kumara) is popular in traditional dishes and also the good old Sunday roast. 
I don’t like sweet potato, the taste of it makes me gag and sometimes when I mistake it for a normal potato some tears find their way out of my eyes as I try and politely get it down.
…..So why am I talking about this? 

Sometimes someones favorite is anothers worst. 

You can’t please everyone. You are unique. You are special. Choose to be around and surround yourself with people who think the best about you. It does no good for your self esteem or worth to try and change someones image of you by changing who you are. 

Be yourself, be who God created you to be, it’s okay not to be everyones flavour, it’s okay to be you! 

I know you are someones favorite kind of person. Gods works are wonderfully awesome and you are one of them! 

The art of being grateful

There are two pictures that can be painted with our thoughts about our lives. One full of regret and bitterness and one full of gratitude and joy.
I painted both pictures. The first was careful strokes and splashes of thoughts of the past, of what ifs and whys, unforgiveness was always sufficient and I found myself dreaming of better days. The outcome meant I had no vision for the future, on the outside cracks started forming and I started to become a bitter person, relationships getting worse and making temporary decisions and finding less and less joy.

Actually, I know a lot of us have been there or are there and still want to stay there. But life continues to move forward and so should we.


How can we dream bigger, live better or love more when we are looking back?

It was a decision to look forward and paint a new picture in my mind. To break habits of looking back which had become a battle and start piecing together beautiful splashes of vision, love, dreams and enjoying each moment that God brought my way. When I did this slowly more light started to creep in and my life started to get better.

Was it my life that changed or me?


I changed and so my life reflected what was happening on the inside. It will always start to come out.

Don’t let everything fall apart before you decide to make the change to be grateful, we can all look at other people’s lives or out past lives and wish and hope but that won’t provide a better future.

I can truly say now I am so grateful for my life and am excited for what lies ahead!
Here a some things to chose on purpose to do! 

1. Take time to reflect on the good things, health, friendships, food, clothes, things you have overcome.

2. Choose to see the positive. (Instead of all the problems or things that arn’t right)

3. Forgive and let go and do it again. (We all needed forgiveness from someone)

4. Ask yourself, what can I do to make tomorrow brighter. ( reading the bible was a huge one to help me in this)

5. Pray….even short ….try, because you may say “What if God doesn’t hear my prayers” but what happens if he does?

6. Surround yourself with people who are excited about the future not constantly talking about the past.