Why I am not enough

I often hear the saying “If you believe in yourself, you can do anything”. Well, that is definitely not true for me. 

I know I have faults, I am not perfect and need a consistent in my life that would help me through my high successes, struggles, decisions and relationships.

I need favor when there is a job interview or a decision that does not rely soley on me.

Trying to just “believe” in myself would only complicate, disappoint and falsify everything that is at work in my life. 

Believing in God and what Jesus has done for me on the cross I then can do life victoriously and do the impossible.
“Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”‭‭Matthew‬ ‭19:26‬ ‭

I am not enough but Jesus is. 
He is enough:To help me to love more.

To show me direction.

To find me favor.

To open doors.

To close doors.

To give me peace.

To give strength.

To take away shame and regret.

To live victorious.

To dream.

To make a way when there seems no way.

To give me hope when hope is lost.

To give me joy.

To give me freedom.

To heal me.

To help me forgive.

To be a better Mum.

To be a better friend.

To be the best wife. 

To comfort me when I am sad.

To rejoice with me when I am happy.

To light my path.

“Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path.”‭‭ Psalm‬ ‭119:105‬ ‭

Gods words can light the way for each step I take. When it feel like there is darkness all around, He shows me the light and when I feel like there is nothing more in me to give , He pours his love and it overflows onto others. 

With Him all things are possible! 

There is nothing too insignificant or too large for him. 

Not depending on myself but depending on Him!

So if you are feeling like you are not enough…..that is 100% okay, because by yourself you may not be, BUT in Jesus you are more than enough.

I guess I could say “If you believe in JESUS, then you can do anything!”

“I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” ‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4:13‬ ‭

Who am I?

People find their identity in many things: nationality , History, Social status, What people have said about them, Facebook , Instagram followers, An accomplishment, a failure, Education, Job, Money, Things, Hobbies, Mother or Father, Talents and Gifts, Beauty, Children.

We are not these things, these may be things that we have done or have in this current time but we are not these things or situations.
We should be forever changing….
Let’s take some examples for us from the bible! 

 Who was David? Son, brother, shephard, singer song writer, warrior, king, adulterer, muderer, humble, friend.

Who was Peter? Fisherman, disciple, trustworthy, passionate, betrayer, friend, preacher, martyr.
We can see here that even people who we read about in the bible and look to for examples of people that God used continued to change, they had ups and downs. Sometimes they were good sometimes they were bad.
Sometimes they were confident sometimes they were scared, unsure.

Its easy to ask the question who am I? 

But we can be full of joy because we know God creates in us something that grows inside us and we continue to change. 

Phil1:6 “being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”

We cannot judge ourselves or anyone else based on their lowest point or their highest point because everyone has the potential to make a great decision or a bad one. 
Don’t feel ashamed or believe in something someone said negative about you.
Don’t think that bad decision or lowest point IS you.
Don’t think that that place where you felt great or had a victory is the high point Of your life and that’s that. 

God knew when we were born, when no one else did, HE knew what we are.

So expect more from life and believe God will continue to work in you and walk with you.

Discover him….so you can discover you.

Gods word= our identity.

What does his word say? Gods word brings light to our life showing us who we are and HOW to live!
For me I felt almost misplaced sometimes, Half Japanese- land of nowhere, where do I belong? An Only child, Fatherless, No family around me, A Victim, a horrible person. Married, a Mother, A Daughter, Sushi shop owner, a surfer, a Teacher, a friend.

When we moved to Japan everything was gone, my friends, my reputation, hobbies, what people knew about me, company…

I Just had my marriage and that could have been Easily gone.
But the Closer to God I got the more confident I got in life. There is more adventure in him. We sometimes make mistakes, I have fallen down, but I get up and shine, and I am full of hope and life because he doesn’t change and his view on us does not change.
Psalm119: 105 “Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path.”

We can find our true identity in Christ as Gods child.
You are Highly favored.

You are Fearfully and wonderfully made.

You are a Friend of God….famous in his eyes.

You are Loved.

You are Precious – bought with a price.

You are the Body of Christ – we all are a part of it. You are needed and function as his hands and feet.

You are Given what Jesus has! 

When we can be sure of who we are, it brings a confidence more than what you could have if it was based on something or someone or an action. 

One with Christ- we are not striving to be more of something.
We are not scared of what others think.

We are not held back by thoughts of failure or regret. We Become more confident to be all we are created to be!

I can’t do anything more to be more Gods child, But I want be the best I can be for God because I love him! 

If we base our value and identity on Things that cannot be taken away, we can rise higher and be more than we thought or dream of and God sees it all! 

Discover and be more confident daily, knowing who you really are! 

I have a question.

I have a question. How much do you spend? How much money do you spend on your physical appearance a day/month/year – Make up, hair touch ups styles, new shoes, new nails, jewelry.

How much time do you spend? How much time does it take for you to get ready ? For you to do that make up or straighten that hair? How many minutes does it take for you to pick the right clothes and be prepared for your day? 

Now the important question. 

How much money and time do you spend on your spiritual appearance and health? How much time a day are you spending getting yourself prepared for the day? 

How much money have you set aside this month to improve your spirit? 

How many minutes did you give to the most important part of you? 
We tend to spend so much money and time trying to cover the blemishes on our skin and yet we neglect to try and heal the Brokeness of our spirits. 
I remember a time when I was becoming more and more concerned about my physical appearance and spending more time and more money to try and make myself look better. Working out that little bit more, trying more, buying more.

I cared a lot about my outside appearance but my inside was getting uglier as each day went by. I was neglecting looking at working on my inside Beauty and working on my spiritual health.
How important is it to get the reflection time, prayer and dream time for you? 

For me I know it’s the most important thing.
We can change. How about giving yourself that time.

Personally As I started on a new journey to prioritize my spiritual self it grew an inner confidence and beauty that you can’t get from the outside. 
I’m not saying looking after the outside isn’t important but what I am saying is looking after the inside is just as or if not more worthy of time and resources. 
Buy that book, read that blog, listen to the inspiring message, give, heal, go to God as your source, reflect, dare to dream again, pray.
See your worth and make that time. 
“Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.”‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:5‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Get lifted

When we lift others up we are pulling ourselves up higher. 
As a leader and as a friend I am continually  faced with the choice to either lift someone else up or myself. 
In the natural we may think that if we show the weaknesses of others or find fault in others we will look greater and be elevated higher but the opposite is true. 
Instead of making things seem complex and yourself sounding like “The master of all” Making things simple and breaking things down in a way that others can understand easily is not only going to make people feel impowered but it’s also going to get people excited about trying too! 

As we encourage and talk about the potential, gifts and good works of others and say “I believe in you!” You’re doing great” they get lifted and in turn so do we. 

“When you try and be top dog, you don’t create loyalty. If you don’t can’t give credit, you will drown in your inhibitory to inspire” – John Maxwell 

A leader or friend who gives no opportunities or grants to access for higher chances is like strong man in a boat with a group of people not letting anyone row the boat because he is the strongest. Guess who will get tired? And who will get burnt out? Not the people sitting watching the strong man struggle. If he gives other people chances and individuals who are willing to paddle saying “you can do it” they all move forward and the whole boat benefits, especially the strong man and they all get a sense of achievent together.

I definitely get challenged by this sometimes because I think “I am capable” but so are others! And when people get chances to shine and be rewarded big and small, we all get lifted and taken to a new level of greatness and forfillment as a team! 

“Your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom, and your dominion endures through all generations. The Lord is trustworthy in all he promises and faithful in all he does. The Lord upholds all who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down.”‭‭Psalm‬ ‭145:13-14‬ ‭NIV‬‬

The time God told me to give my lunch away

Ever stopped and seen someone hungry and felt so sorry for them, you can see that they need help and for a brief second this persons world over takes yours but then you continue normally in your day. Sympathy. Feeling sorry. Is it enough? 
I was walking through the train station on my way to work when I saw the homeless man who slept by the elevator. “Give him your lunch” this thought came to my mind and I thought “huh, really?” Then the image of the sandwich I made came into my head. “What will I eat” I thought. I was rushing so I ran to catch my train.

 As I passed the bagel shop on the way to work I thought to myself “I should have given that man my lunch, I would have bought a bagel here” 

When I got to work my work collegue handed me a bag of bagels from the bagel shop. 
Sympathy vs Compassion 
Compassion is love in action.

Compassion sets the bar at another level and says “I feel your pain and this is how I can help”

We may not be able to help everyone who is going through something but we all have someone who we can help or encourage or lift today. 
Sometimes it will be easy like giving someone your lunch and for an afternoon you will be sightly hungry but for that person they just went from starving to full and from hopeless to hopefull.

I felt pretty silly that I didn’t do such a small act which God was asking me to do. 

Of course after work the homeless man was still there, And I gave him the food, but I should have been obedient at the time God asked.
I learnt a huge lesson that day, listen to the Holy Spirit when he is asking you. Big and small. Be a person of love and action. Just do it.

“If one of you says to them, “Go in peace; keep warm and well fed,” but does nothing about their physical needs, what good is it? In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.”

‭‭James‬ ‭2:16-17‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Grace bomb

What why did I write grace bomb? 
Because, when we understand grace, it’s like boom! Everything else fades away. 

Your insufficiency gone, guilt gone, shame gone. The need to compare or try to compete are all exploded and what’s left is peace, power and a sound mind! 
My son is two. He’s the cutest little human I have ever loved. He can do absolutely nothing and I’ll do anything for him. 

When tries to do something nice for me like putting the uncooked pasta in a bowl for me to eat, it melts my heart.

Grace is underserved, it’s a gift. 

My son can’t do anything to make him be any more my son than he is now. But somehow everyday I feel myself loving him more! 
And that is the same with our awesome father God. You can’t do anything to be more loved or more cared for or more Gods son or daughter, he loves you. 

God gave his absolute best for you. 

Understand the intensity and the greatness of how much he loves and cares for you. 

And live from that. You’ll find you can do ALL THINGS you need to do with him. You can use your gifts and talents he gave you. And best of all you can love others so much more! 
My pastor shared how they helped rebuild a house after the big Tohoku disaster in Japan. An old lady stood in the door bowing and crying, she had nothing to give them to repay them for rebuilding her house but to invite them in for a cup of green tea. 

God gave Jesus to save us, heal us and set us free. Just like the lady with the green tea, Though we have nothing comparable to give back to him he gives to us freely! 

Let Gods unfailing grace remind you today of how loved and excepted you are today! 

Do you like Sweet Potato?

The sweet potato is a popular food in Japan, you can find it roasting on the side of the streets in the back of a truck or used to make cakes or chippies. In New Zealand the sweet potato (kumara) is popular in traditional dishes and also the good old Sunday roast. 
I don’t like sweet potato, the taste of it makes me gag and sometimes when I mistake it for a normal potato some tears find their way out of my eyes as I try and politely get it down.
…..So why am I talking about this? 

Sometimes someones favorite is anothers worst. 

You can’t please everyone. You are unique. You are special. Choose to be around and surround yourself with people who think the best about you. It does no good for your self esteem or worth to try and change someones image of you by changing who you are. 

Be yourself, be who God created you to be, it’s okay not to be everyones flavour, it’s okay to be you! 

I know you are someones favorite kind of person. Gods works are wonderfully awesome and you are one of them!