Choosing God over the good.

A few years ago my husband was working Tuesday to Saturdays and I was working Monday to Friday. I started thinking about working 4 days instead. The same week Daniel said to me “Hey I was thinking, do you wanna start working 4 days instead of 5?”. I was so surprised he was on the same page as me and I had not mentioned it at all!
I had a couple of options. Our church was just about to launch Tuesday night services and I could take Tuesdays off to help with that or take Mondays off and spend them with Daniel.
I prayed about it and what I really wanted was to have mondays off with Daniel but I didn’t feel right in my gutt. It was weird, I asked God “what do you want me to do please tell me.” I opened my bible and this scripture hit me in the face haha not literally.

“Remember, it is sin to know what you ought to do and then not do it.”‭‭James‬ ‭4:17‬ ‭NLT‬‬

I knew deep down I should take Tuesdays off, I didn’t understand why really, I thought God would want me to have a day off with my husband but I didn’t want to choose a good thing over what God was saying was his thing.
I went to work and decided I would tell my supervisor I would need to take Tuesdays off because I needed to help with our new church service. When I told her, her response was this “okay, what time do you need to leave to get to set up? Why don’t you come earlier to work, finish earlier and we will give you a pay raise”.

What! The increase in my wage and earlier hours meant I could still have Mondays off spend time with Daniel and help with the launch of the new service on Tuesdays! 
God gave me the best, his way, doing his will and building his kingdom and spending a day with my husband. I could understand his bigger plan after all! 
If I chose what I thought was the “good option” over “Gods option” I would have totally missed out on what he had for me. 
God doesn’t ask us to choose his way over the seemingly good way so that we miss out, it is because he sees the bigger picture that we often miss. 
This was a huge lesson for me, not blatantly doing something wrong but not doing what we know to do is sinning, that’s missing the mark but it’s so amazing how we can come to him always everyday and say “I might have missed it a bit today, help me hear from you again tomorrow!” 
If we live everyday having in mind that “God I wanna choose your ways over the “good ways” because your ways are best” it’s really saying “God you are God and you always know best!”.
“For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.”

‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭55:9‬ ‭NLT‬‬

What are you expecting?

God has something for you today to receive and You have something to give today for someone to receive.
This year I tried doing something, I would buy a bunch of flowers pray and ask God what to write on a small card and then after work give the Flowers to someone I thought would be encouraged by them. When I would leave work and walk to the train station I had one mission, to give these flowers to someone. The funny thing is that I noticed I would look at everyone waiting for someone to make eye contact but pretty much everyone was on their phones, usually I would be too or I would be rushing from work to make the next train. Now I would walk smiling at anyone that would make eye contact and I was soooo ready to give. When I “found” the right person the reaction was always different, some people laughed and said thank you, some hugged me, some people looked like they were going to cry and some said “no thank you”. I don’t know what happened in their day or what was happening in their life but I do know that I just gave them a bunch of flowers and that could have brightened someone’s day or even stopped someone from feeling helpless and alone.

It actually took courage and sometimes I even thought about just taking the flowers home because I was scared of them saying no or looking silly, but my desire to help someone and bless someone always overcame my feeling of fear.

I got more out of these moments than I thought I would which is so amazing.

I don’t want to rush through life from one part to the next, I want to look at each moment even “between things” as chances to hear from God or bless someone.

Smile at people.

Be ready to overcome insecurities and fears for someone else’s benefit.

Be ready to bless and uplift and also be ready to be blessed and uplifted. 

It doesn’t have to be a bunch of flowers, it could be a kind word or a cup of coffee, even a smile.

I don’t think people walk through life expecting something great to happen and we often plan for our best days and moments but are always prepared for the worst to happen. 
But God wants us to be expectant that even today could be of one the best days! 
And be willing and ready to except it, unlike those unwilling to receive flowers from me.

I love this story in acts: “Peter looked straight at him, as did John. Then Peter said, “Look at us!” So the man gave them his attention, expecting to get something from them. Then Peter said, “Silver or gold I do not have, but what I do have I give you. In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, walk.” Taking him by the right hand, he helped him up, and instantly the man’s feet and ankles became strong. He jumped to his feet and began to walk. Then he went with them into the temple courts, walking and jumping, and praising God. When all the people saw him walking and praising God, they recognized him as the same man who used to sit begging at the temple gate called Beautiful, and they were filled with wonder and amazement at what had happened to him.” Acts‬ ‭3:4-10‬ ‭NIV‬‬

The man begging was ready and expectant for something, and I am sure Peter and John were walking around waiting to give.
The lame man got more than he could have ever wanted or imagined that day. He walked.

I believe God has something for you today! It could be healing, peace, power, love, money, healing, acceptance, friendship and I believe you have something great to give too!
Let’s not rush from one schedule to the other but be in every moment and ready to be used today! 


I’ve just finished reading a blog by she told her story about a manager who took advantage of her thinking his power & status would be enough to over power her dignity. 

What got me angry, sad and boiled up was the comments after…..story after story of woman and children being abused and taken advantage of. People too embarrassed to speak out to their friends and family about it, people hurting and still dealing with these undeserved moments in time against them.

It’s unjustice. It’s not okay.
My father was a known pedifile and sexual predator. 

At nine years old he was in jail again, this time for raping and abducting two woman. They were prostutes. His comment was “How can you rape a prostitute?” 

At 14 years old I told my best friend about being abused by my Dad and another guy in my childhood. Do you know what my friend did…she believed me, she believed IN me, she told me to go get some help and to seek God for healing. This is a good friend. She said If I needed to talk I could anytime, if I didn’t want to then I didn’t have to.
The feelings I had as sexually abused person was this, dirt, shame, hurt. 

You feel like your covered in dirt and you can’t quite wash it off. Some days it was there stronger than others.

I struggled for years with these feelings of dirt and shame. And I often found myself acting out from them. But one day I felt real healing, God took all of my shame, dirt, and unworthyness and replaced it wholeness and love. Part of it came from giving forgiveness and the other came from realizing Gods unfailing love, seeing myself the way he really sees me and looking forward to a brighter and bigger future with Jesus in the center of it.

Blameless, beautiful, clean and pure.

Sometimes I felt like I was walking in dirty rags though no one could see, so this scripture is pretty awesome.

“Come now, let’s settle this,” says the LORD. “Though your sins are like scarlet, I will make them as white as snow. Though they are red like crimson, I will make them as white as wool.”‭‭ Isaiah‬ ‭1:18‬ ‭NLT

White as snow. Wow. 

So here’s what I say to anyone reading this. 

If someone has picked you to be the person that they trust enough to expose their heart to, please believe them and believe in them. Hold their hand, pray for them ….be there and encourage them to take action for real healing. It takes real courage to even come and speak about what has happened.

If you’ve been abused tell someone you trust, find someone to trust. Don’t feel ashamed, don’t feel guilty, Get help, seek life giving healing. And let Gods spirit do something amazing for you. Jesus can and will restore you more than what you ever thought possible and you will be more shiny and more radiant than ever before.

“and provide for those who grieve in Zion– to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor. ” Isaiah 61:3

God can make all things new, Crowned with beauty, full of joy, overflowing with life, strengthened in righteousness. 

Is it bad or is it good? 

I recently read a story about a lady who had young children and was struggling trying to juggle getting her kids to the beach while carrying all their stuff, while passing an old man he said to his wife “wow weren’t those the days?”. While she was having a hard moment, the man relaxing on the beach was remembering similar situations as cherished times.

It is so easy to simply look ahead or behind. Sometimes thinking and waiting and struggling that this could not a time to look back on and enjoy, but it is. This could be the moment you look back and say “I remember when I had nothing, when my children always wanted me, that I had to study so hard, when I overcame, when I had time. Believing the best is today and that there is purpose in it for our lives is so important!

We can shine through having an Attidude of Gratitude.

“And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him” (Colossians 3:17).

We all have stuff to do. If we do it with a good attitude and being excited to do it, it’s gonna bring a possitive result.

“Do everything without grumbling or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, “children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation.” Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky” ‭Philippians‬ ‭2:14-15‬ ‭NIV‬‬

It says when we do anything without complaining we stand out….we shine.

It’s doesn’t say: when we try be super holy or when we pray or  sing super loud at church. It’s saying when we live day to day with a good attitude we stand out!

Some people always seem to have a problem and some people always have a good story to tell of a victory or something good that’s happened to them. I don’t think “bad” things always happen to the same people and “some people are just lucky”.

It’s all Based on life attitudes and if you read the stories in the bible God really doesn’t like it when we grumble and complain.

If you take a look in the story of Moses it talks about a whole generation of people missing out on the best thing and seeing the promised land because they complained about their situation.

How many great and best things or promises have we missed because we were too busy grumbling about the journey to get there?

Getting a good emotional hygiene is just as important as body hygiene.

Brush teeth – so they are clean and don’t smell, wash face – so you’re clean and fresh, have a shower, stop complaining and put on some of that grateful lotion (it smells really good).

Having dishes to do means food on the table, rent to pay means a roof over our head, report for the boss…. a job, busy studying means the opportunity to get an education, coming early for church a chance to use your gifts, stuck in traffic equals a car that’s working, taking a test another time for progress.

It’s going to effect us and those around us and most importantly who we are as a person when we see things and live with this perspective.

The grass is always greener on the other side……it probably rained a lot over there.

What can you be grateful for and what areas do you need to see God in your situation?

I know so many areas I need to thank God for! I know he doesn’t owe me anything yet he continues to give me so much.

Let’s choose to shine bright like the previous scripture said and if you find yourself in a bad mindset wash some of that negativity off by finding some things to be thankful for.

I wonder who we can impact just by having an attitude of gratitude?

Overcoming fear

I believe in progress growth and overcoming fear with Gods help is so important to live a healthy and victorious life! 

I have just posted a vlog, How many times have I recorded something and deleted it? I am not sure, but God continues to show me daily that I can’t be held back by the negotive what ifs in my mind but by the what could bes of victories he has in store. 

So many times we miss out because we are too afraid of others, ourselves and what lies we have been told. 

God didn’t give us that fear!

Let’s live in his victories daily, full of his love and power! 

If you want to check my vlogpost click the link 🙂

A tough week 

It had been a challenging week, I jumped in the shower and started to pray. “Can you thank me?” I felt God say to me.”What?, thank you? I’m trying to complain…I mean pray. I believe in the power of Jesus, in healing and what we ask in prayer we receive, why is everything going wrong? And why is koa still sick!”

Still the answer was “can you thank me?”

With gritted teeth I reluctantly started to thank God for different things. Having a roof over my head, an awesome family, my friends, our car, my job, our usual health. As I went through the list I became more excited to say more, I felt built up and by the time I was out I was refreshed like a new person as if walls had come down and I had a new sense of faith and fight in me.

My son had a fever of 40 degrees for over a week at that stage, we had done 3 trips to the doctor and 2 to the hospital, chest X-rays, drips and nebulizers. The washing machine broke and we had two air cons that needed to be installed.
After my shower I walked into the room to see my son, the worship music was playing and he was still laying exausted. 

I layed down next to him, he looked at me and put his hands in the air like he was worshiping. It was so cute I copied him and we worshiped together.

Suddenly like a bolt of lighting had stuck him he jumped up, ran into the other room and started playing his little drums!

My husband and I looked at each other and surprised I said “what just happened?”
Koa was jumping, smiling and playing the drums and he had color in his face again.

I checked his temperature and the fever was gone! 
The next day we decided to take the washing machine to the recyclers. It was time to get a new one. We had already done a few trips to the laundry mat and I had been trying to start it all week with no avail. I actually laid hands on it and prayed for it to work like 3 times. Just before we took it to the van my husband suggested we try turn it on one more time. I pushed the start button and it started to work! We cracked up and thanked God for his perfect timing. 

After church the following day the aircon guy came to install our machines, the quote was for $350, with the summer here and our friends with 4 children coming to stay we needed to get it done.

The man went and installed everything and at the end asked for $100 only! 

I was totally blown away, this man came on a Sunday, fit us in last minute and now took more than half off his quote for us!

God gave me the challenge to worship and thank him through my hard time, when I was feeling so low. Could I still put him first and do what he asked. 

It had been a tough week, but through Gods faithfulness and the breakthrough power of worship and thankfulness it became a victorious week! 

“Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.” ‭‭1 Thessalonians‬ ‭5:16-18‬ ‭NLT‬‬